i wonder when i'll wake up (...all of this is such a different world)

  

I am just looking for someone with something to say.

 

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Hello infrequent frequency I wonder what you’ll do to me.

 

Institute availability…

 

Now tell me: is there anybody out there?

 

 

Enter the betrayal:

 

 

Wonder ceases to amaze me as I search for answers…

 

Closed emotions… detached from this reality…

 

So you wait in your little bubble of nothing, free to see what you wish.

 

I see through you. I know you’ll never realize I wish for your freedom from your lies.

 

Your freedom from this, freedom from your disease.

 

To accept this “problem you do not have” would be disaster.

 

There is contradiction in your day to day utilization of your life… has your lease expired?

 

I have no answer to your vision; your life’s lie is my derision.

 

 

 

And yet I wonder,

 

yet I wonder,

 

why should I even care…

 

 

Why do you choose to pull the strings on my reality? Your ties died and yet you wonder why I stay?

 

I bide my time and rationalize by reliving the trials of my life.

 

Now, what’s in a release? Relive your fantasy… harbor your illusions, revisit your intention…

 

I’d martyr my conviction, but that doesn’t matter to you.

 

The contagion you carry will spread from head to head; bed to bed…

 

And by the hearts of many, you all chose to bleed me dry.

 

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and why did I let you do this to me? 

 

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That is what has been on my mind…

I hope this can help someone else through their struggle.